MyFkdMind

I have been asking my family questions since I have decided to share my experiences.

 My mother and father grew up together as children in remote towns, both their fathers built the railway line to Alice Springs.   My mother was sent to school in the city unfortunately that did not work out well. Married at sixteen and pregnant she did however complete nursing training.   I believe she cared for my brother for some time but ultimately the family took him in.   The story is a bit vague here, but she went back to her husband and had another child.  This was a little girl and was placed up for adoption I do not believe my mother recovered from that.  She left the city and returned to Port Augusta.  Her sister was looking after her son, and she went back to work as a nurse.

I asked my father why she went out of her way to find him.  His reply was she had a boyfriend but she was looking for somewhere to live.

For as long as I can remember my mother accused his father of sexually assaulting her as a child, I do believe her.  He ended up being my grandfather this is the part that blows my mind how did she deal with her abuser. How desperate was she.   I do not know she is dead now and I will never get the real answer.  How do you cope having a relationship with your abuser’s son she would have been reminded of this abuse constantly ultimately, he was a grandfather to four of her children.

Did she allow me and my two sisters to be baby sat by him yes where we in danger I believe so.

I do not believe anything happened, I do not have a great memory I blocked out some much of my childhood experiences.  Words really do not do justice to her behaviour.

As a mother it makes my skin crawl to even imagine putting my children at such risk.